Thoughts

After listening to the Cure Kid's Cancer phone-a-thon for three days, I was thinking how blessed I am.

I know what it feels like to have a cancer scare, especially with your child. They kept saying on the radio that they had 41 kids diagnosed with cancer in the past year, and all I could think about was how fortunate we were that Macyn didn't have cancer. Instead, she had a different infection that is even more rare than cancer. 5 people last year had the same thing as Macyn. 8x more kids have cancer at the hospital, than what Macyn had.

Its so, so, so, very scary to hear doctors talk about your child having, "the bad stuff" and requiring a biopsy so "they could decide if we would need to start treatments immediately."

So I cannot help to think, wow, that could have been my child....but it wasn't. God has given my child something more rare....and curable. So blessed.

Having said that, I found a new growth on Macyn's neck today. Its about the size of a pea, and about .5" away from where her other one was. The thing is, if they didn't get all the infected tissue, it could grow back, which we were in the clear for. The other thing I am concerned about is what if she has gotten it again? The pediatric doctor said its rare to get it one time, and extremely rare to get it two times.

Needless to say, I am pretty worried again. Her pediatric doctor is getting a call first thing in the morning on Monday. I have cried a couple times today worrying about the new lump with eerily similar characteristics. Trying to breathe these next couple of days until we get more answers. 

I can't help but wonder if the ATB could be throughout her body. I know I shouldn't think like that, but I am truly scared again. Scared just like the day she had a biopsy. This is like deja vu again. Prayers that we find more answers and that this will turn out to be nothing would be appreciated. I will try and keep updated posts as soon as we find out more information.

As for right now...I'm praying, and hoping for the best...and trying to get through these couple of days

Fun in the Sun

We had to drive to another town today to pick up some rain boots I bought off a local swap site, and decided on the way home to check out the campground. We were pleasantly surprised to see a whole bunch of geese and ducks. We also let Macyn try out her new boots in the water. Since we picked them up today she has constantly told us, "I want it to rain to wear my boots." She was pretty proud of them, that's for sure. Here are some pictures:

We might even go camping there this summer. It also has a nice bike trail, golf course nearby, and a playground.

First Egg Hunt

We took Macyn to her first Easter Egg hunt today. We weren't sure quite what to expect, but I all I know is this is a lot of Easter grass:

They had a two and under group go first, so DH helped Macyn find eggs. There were 3 or so "golden eggs" and if you found one of those, you got a bigger prize. Once you filled your basket with eggs, they gave you a ticket and could exchange it for a bag of goodies. Included was candy, stickers, small toys, jelly beans, a pencil, and other little prizes. Macyn didn't find a golden egg, but she was happy with the prizes she got.

Also at the egg hunt was a craft station where they could color a bookmark. Macyn wasn't too impressed, but we took one home anyways.

She also received her first face painting, and told the girl specifically she wanted a pink bunny. She was pretty proud of it!

After the face painting she wanted to go see the Easter bunny. We went and saw him and tonight I asked her, "did you see the Easter bunny today?" and Macyn responds, "He dressed up like a bunny."

Wow. Nothing gets past her!

Spring Snapshots

We decided to take a few pictures of Macyn before her very first Easter egg hunt. She sure does love to pose for the camera!

Macyn's Masterpiece

 Macyn really wanted to paint tonight, so we decided to give up on making home made finger paints and went and bought her some REAL paints. We bought one set of watercolors and one set of 18 different colors of poster paint....and a 15 pack of little brushes. She was pretty excited to paint and it kept her (and mommy and daddy) entertained for quite some time.

She started off making circles of every color on her paper. Then towards the end she decided to mix them all together and begin finger painting herself! Shortly after that we said, "all done!" and I ended up with a one of a kind masterpiece for my cubicle at work.

First Flowers

We bought Macyn a little green house with some marigold seeds at Walmart for $1. She is pretty proud of planting her flowers and takes good care of them. We put them in the window sill and we let her water them too. We already have about 8-10 sprouts! Now lets hope Mommy's "black thumb" doesn't kill them all ;)

Parks!

We have made it a goal to try and do something as a family every night, whether it be walking or riding bike to get exercise. We have been doing pretty well so far and we have hit up four different parks already! We have definitely taken advantage of the nice 70º+ weather. Macyn loves going to all the different parks and will usually choose to bike or walk. She is doing a lot better of staying in her stroller and she enjoys riding in her bike carrier as well. Here are some pictures at the park!